I remember when growing up having to do speeches for english or Afrikaans. I hated standing in front of the class and giving a speech because I lacked so much confidence and feared failure so badly. It was most certainly not my scene talking in front of people. There were times however we were asked to do speeches on what we'd like to become one day. Having attended 2 primary and 3 high-school's I got to deliver this special speech at least 5 times with all the confidence in the world because, since I was really young I always knew... "One day when I grow up I am gonna sing for Jesus".
No one knew I could sing. I never entered competitions at school (until I was in matric where my mom and aunt entered me in one) nor took part in plays. My gift was for Jesus - and Jesus alone. My teachers must have thought... "Uuuhhhh Sure... This strange little girl, who smells funny wants to sing for Jesus... She has no confidence and she doesn't have what it takes!" That may have been true, and in hind-sight may even have been wiser for me to take part in play or two to work the confidence a bit. But I suppose that's what makes this testimony a greater one.
We always read in Habakuk 2:3 "for the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry."
Ever since my first speech its been at least 25 years of more dreaming and more speaking. In my "waiting" I have been waiting forward... towards the dream without realizing it. I have written many songs... Over 50 have been recorded on voice notes to my phone.
I have recently started recording my first album... I am so excited to see this dream come true. There were times I had wondered if it would even happen and for those close to me - they will know I have been talking about this for a number of years... I am sure they got tired hearing about it.
I find that most of the songs I had written are outdated and their season has come and gone... But they were excellent opportunities to craft the gift God has placed inside of me. I am realizing more and more that exercising the gifts God has given us behind closed doors where no man can praise the artist or his work is "waiting" on the fulfillment of the dream. Waiting (as in serving) is still a form of spending time yes? So I "waited" on God with my gift for many years... And the appointed time has come.
I cannot wait to get these songs out there. My heart rejoices in God's faithfulness - I am in awe really at how things are coming together. The greatest prayer of my heart is that each song will touch somebody's heart the same way God has spoken to me through some of these... I am continually writing more and developing my style into the direction God will lead me into. But more than that... Cultivating a message deep in the heart of each song that sings of Jesus and who He is.... How he loves us... How he'll never disappoint us nor give on us!
May every soul that has ever doubted God's love for them be awakened to The extravagant dimensions of His love. May every wounded heart be rescued from its despair, every lost son and daughter be restored to God our Father who loves each and every single one of His creations so dearly.... That is my prayer for this entire world... And that's my heart for this album....
God does make our dreams come true... Because most of the time he has someone else in mind... Though it tarries... Wait for it... It's coming...
